Another chapter of me.

Today I've finished all my exams for my first year of college, so as any normal person would do I came home and put the TV on... It was 'Remember Me' the second Robert Pattinson film I've seen recently other than some Twilight films. It was a real sob story& typically as I usually do - I cried! Anything to do with pain on a mass scale and I can't seem to stop my tears. But, it made me think about all the people in 9:11 who were related or connected to someone else. I know I'm not the only person in the world without a Dad, it doesn't make it any easier but at least I know I'm not alone. Today I finished my AS year and it hit me that my Dad didn't even make it to my first day of High School, he didn't even see me finish Primary... This year so much has already changed and I feel that everything I once cherished is ending.. Now and again you need a hug off of your Dad and I just happen to be one of the unlucky buggers that can't do that. I miss him. He's the only person that I feel knew me properly, and I've been searching for someone to fill that irreplaceable space, but of course I know I never will. Something else that bothers me is I know that one day my children will say, "Mum, why don't you have a Dad?" and I know I'll just instantly cry (like the emotion fool I am!) But then they will have an empty space like mine that they will never be able to fill, never having two Grandad's... I know I only had two for 5 weeks but even that's longer than what they're have.