I don't know what to say really...

I mean, wow. I'm really quite shocked& unpleasantly surprised! I feel more anger for her than ever before&  I hate that because it's not going to help anything. But, there's nothing we can do now which is also shitty! FML sometimes, I really am rather gutted :(

Hum hum humm...

Well, I hope that Christmas& New Year are both fabulous for everybody& what's more I hope that I enjoy my life.
You see today I saw my next door neighbours. This may not seem like a very important thing but I assure you that it was indeed memorable! Bare in mind that whilst I was still in my PJs: greasy hair; no make-up; smelly; and wearing the most OTT pair of Christmas slippers that you've ever seen. Six beautifully clean cut, drop-dead gorgeous people floated in through the front door.
*jaw drops to the floor*
Turns out the younger of the two (tall, long haired& hansom, probably has an extremely exciting well paid job too) has this previous evening got engaged to the most stunning American Korean women you've ever seen. :O
I was totally star struck by people I'd known all my life (bar the girlfriend of James& fiancée of Mike)  I didn't know what to do, so I tried to be funny which of course never works when you try :(. But of course you can sort of let me off since I was distracted by the enormous rock that sat sparkling away on Mike's fiancée's finger. You could probably sell it and feed the whole of China! No joke, it was the biggest ring I'd ever seen in real life... I wish I have a ring like that *looks dreamily into distance* 
Alas I couldn't even be jealous since they were all lovely& I admit it was(!) lovely to see them, but I couldn't help thinking "Why in the world have you come now?? Why not later when I'm dressed& look good?"
I just hope that I can make a good impression next time... Here's me pathetically hoping that there will BE a next time :S
Merry Christmas.

My life is so not a party.

Y’know what… I hate my life sometimes& I think that’s only because I see other peoples lives and think - wtf isn’t mine like that!?

Not only do I know people who are better looking& better with boys but they really are just better at life than I am :(

I just want to find somebody to latch onto, become friends with then get invited to cool parties& have fun - like normal people do. I’m not saying my friends are shitty! I’m just saying that I wish we had more mutual friends that had awesome parties :P

Is that a bad thing she pondered… 

Christmas.

It's Christmas and I'm on Blogger, I wouldn't necessarily say that this is a bad thing but I have no idea whether this makes me look sad or just bored? Because I assure you it's the latter.

I've got lots of lovely things today but I'm sure that there are lots of things on my Christmas list of which I have not yet received... Fear not! It's my Birthday tomorrow& I'm hoping to score some stella prezzies, if not oh well. I'll just save up my pocket money& buy them my self *proud face*

Not all of my Christmas' are like this you know, usually I'm having a very merry time right up until 12 o'clock.. Mind you my other half is (fingers crossed) on his way so that should keep me entertained :/.

Tomorrow is another day :)

The BOB(!) is back.

Oh yes! The bob is back :)

I didn't think I'd ever have a bob again to be honest but I have to admit that I'm loving it so far! I just hope everyone else does :S

White Christmas.

No my gaf definitely doesn't look like this, but I really wish it did!

Christmas is coming and the goose is getting fat... 

I'm a silly moo!!

I went to bed last night at about 10:30pm and nodded off rather quickly. One hour after this I got a text from Pat, which made my face resemble this...

I read the text and then within a few seconds forgot why I was up and started getting ready for school! If it wasn't for Mum reminding me that it was only 11:45pm I would've ended up at school, wondering why nobodies there. Lol - I'm a silly moo!!

Not too shabby, ey?

Yay! I got 9/11 in my chemistry test on BBC bitesize... I know, doesn't seem a big deal but I'm doing just as well on the others as well. I'm feeling good about this science exam; let's just hope I feel like this tomorrow! :)

I Love Hucklow

Hucklow is a home away from home. A place where you can take your thoughts and opinions and share them with others without being judged. It's that beautiful bubble of trust that will never burst.

Paid, Packaged& Posted! (or at least on it's way!)

Mum just ordered it!! I'm soo excited :D It looks great& Is just what I wanted to be honest.. Can't wait till it arrives!

Winter's Arrival!

Y'know it's winter when Mum puts the fire on! The flames raging up in front of you, warming up the whole room! Eric curling up on the carpet :)... Probably the first time he's shut up in months!

One of the rare times Mum& I spend time together and we're both on laptops! TYPICAL :D

Snowy Sweet-hearts

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I can't remember how long it took him to do this, but I know he did it with a drum-stick lol!

I can't wait for the snow this year, it'll be our second Christmas together :)

Emma might mean this...

I don't want to get the wrong end of the stick, but I can't help thinking that when Emma said she wanted an over-sized jumper she meant one like this... This one ends just above my knees :]

I wear it as a dress most of the time!

Sorry if this wasn't a help... I just thought she might've meant something along these lines.

Peace&Love&Music OR Sex&Drugs&Rock'n'Roll?

I feel like my whole life has to involve something important right now, like everything has to be serious and precisely thought out.. But, this is the time when we should just be having fun! 

Just chilling out or doing something insane can be really good now-and-ag... always

WTAF?

I have no idea how I've done it.. But, I'm a follower OF MYSELF!?

Stupid blogger. :(

The first of many... I hope!

YAYY!! This is my first finished page (2 to be exact) in my Sketchbook Project notebook! I got it after I came home from dancing today and set about getting something down on paper.

The picture took me about 5 minutes to draw, which is spooky seen as my theme is 'In 5 minutes..." because I didn't want her to be precise, I wanted to make her natural and not over-done if you know what I mean. I wanted the hearts in the right-hand corner to stick out to give the effect that she is thinking of her love, I placed them a little bit away from her to symbolise the distance between her and her love. Her face is kind of sad, but patient.. She's willing to wait for her love and trying to distract herself by reading even though he is all which is on her mind.

The poem next to my picture is by Isabel Caila Samuels - Waiting for your love, which I found matched what I wanted the picture to portray really well. The poem is one of my favourites because even though it's about love it's not too soppy :). Again, keeping the hand-writing free and not too precise; A theme I am hoping to keep through-out the whole of my notebook... If I manage to finish it in time! :P

Tinkerbell

My friend is having an awesome(!) costume 16th Birthday Party and I've decided to go as Tinkerbell... My Grandma has a friend who makes costumes for shows and things, so she is going to make it for me (fingers crossed!!) so I've drawn a design for my perfect costume :)

Patrice is also going to the party.. I've convinced him to go as Peter Pan!!! :D In tights hehehe.. I feel the tinkering has already begun!  

Hmm... Camping?

Pat's step-bro came up with the idea that Pat& I should go camping, sure it's a good idea on paper but I highly doubt we'd actually be allowed to do it! First the plan was for the 3 of us to go, now it's changed to just Pat& I :S... I'd like to but as I say, the likely hood of us being able to is very slim :(.
I'll have to discuss it with him really :/

Wank For Peace

I am generally thrilled to say, I might be getting these shoes either late this year or early next year :). I first saw them when I went on a school trip to Paris, we went shopping [of course] one day and I rushed to the Vans store and saw these selling cheap... They didn't have my size D':

I was devastated but knew that I would one day have the chance to own them, the 2 particularly great things about these shoes is that A) a fit guy I know of has a pair! :O and B) Ozzy Osborne designed them - what more could you ask for ey?

Oh Dio!

I'm finally coming to terms with the fact that Mum knows and now he tells me Dawn wants to speak to Mum :O... I don't know weather I can handle this if I'm honest. I've been freaking out all week because she hasn't brought it up yet and I'm so shy (can you believe it!?) about talking openly to her on the subject. I'm worried that the flood gates will open and I'll have to admit everything and adopt an "ashamed" out-look on the situation. But, I'm hoping it won't come to that and Dawn is just making Pat Paranoid.

It's a beautiful day... YEAH!

Great day! I'm so pleased that I'm pleased :D... I never thought it'd feel like this, but I'm glad it does. Hurah for going with the feeling!

English coursework...

I better do my English now.. I should've finished it by now if I'm honest. Never-mind, ey? At least I've put more than one post on my blogger! :D

Jaffa... Cake!?

Are Jaffa Cakes biscuits or cakes?? I've always taken for granted that they're biscuits, because you don't need a knife to eat them, but they have cake in their name!? How confusing.

Time is a funny thing.

I seem to be living in my own little world recently, it's like life is passing me by but slowing down to let me live a little.

The Inter-Web.

It's difficult to imagine a life without a computer. Everything is connected with the internet and practically everything isn't private any more.. So I thought, make a blog! Ha. I know, it's a very random conclusion but it makes sense to me& I think that's what matters :)